Welcome to the cruel world. Chapter 18

As if my brain needed another shock, another thing to worry/think about. as if the things i had on my plate aren't enough, now i find out that my mom, thats if she still deserves that title, was or in London, getting treated from a disease we knew nothing about.

i took some deep breaths and told Khaled to wait for me outside, after an unsure look he left, leaving me and someone who knew stuff about my mother that even her own daughter doesn't know.

I sat down, right in front of his desk, my eyes and voice showed firmness when i said, "Dr. i want you to tell me everything about my mom, i don't care how long it takes, you tell me everything, right? she owns me that much and so do you."

After a moment of hesitation, he opened his mouth and started telling me everything from A-Z. He told me how the symptoms started showing when i was 12, and she hid the disease from us till it got worse and she told "him" about it and he didn't even care. When i turned 13, thats when she thought i was mature enough to leave me, to leave us, alone with him, the beast. She went to London for treatment, not telling anybody except for her Dr.

The whole time he was telling me this, one thought was roaming in my head; why didn't she take us with her? why did she leave me, leave us with him, when she knew he was crazy, crazy with her and even crazier without her.

He stopped and looked at me, waiting for my reaction. Every time i open up my mouth to say something, anything, i start to choke up on my own words. After 5 long minutes of me not saying anything, he said in a soft voice, "Norah, i have a very important meeting now, i'm early sorry that you had to find this out this way, i'm deeply sorry."

I opened up my mouth again and this time i spoke up, "Its fine, really. i had to find out, one way or another." i gave him a warm, reassuring smile. And it was really fine, its not like it was his fault.

i got up, and he did also. i shook his hand and turned my direction to the door. As soon as i opened the door i saw Khaled getting up from his seat and almost ran to me.

"Ha, shagal? Are you okay? Where is your mom now?" he started asking me a question after another. i wasn't even sure that we breathed between each question..

"I'll tell you everything in the car, but lets go to the reception so i'd take the blood test." i wanted this day to be over already. He nodded his head as an "ok" and we did everything; filled out the necessary forms and after waiting for 15mins for my turn we were finally done and heading to the car.

I started to get lightheaded so Khaled insisted on getting me orange juice so the dizziness would go away. On our way back i told him everything that Dr. David told me. After i finished telling him everything i turned my head to see him, waiting for his reaction. He didn't say anything until he parked outside our granny's house.

"Well, that sucks." He said, not even looking at me. "Tell me something i don't know." i said after sighing. I was just about to leave the car when he started speaking again, "Norah, we have to go to your mom. you have to hear this from her."

"i wish if it was that easy, Khaled.."

"IT IS EASY! its not fair for you nor for Abdullah! He deserves to know his mother, doesn't he?"

i didn't reply…. i hated yelling. it reminds me a lot of him…

i guess he knew i was scared..

"Norah, I'm sorry for yelling wallah i didn't mean to.." he said, his voice showing how sorry he was.

i gave him a small smile and said, "its fine, i know you didn't mean it."

"Good."

we kept staring into each others eyes for God knows how long till my phone started ringing, Dammit -.-

i answered without even looking at the caller's ID.

"Hello?" i said into the phone while getting out of the car. "Norah?" Said the other voice which i recognised as Dr. David's voice.

"Yes, whats up, Dr.?" i said shrugging my shoulders to Khaled's "What does he want?"

"Well, Norah, the reception were gonna call you but i wanted to personally tell you this." i was confused..

"What do you mean?"

"Well, i pulled some strings and managed to get your blood test done, so I'm happy to tell you that it turned out to be negative, you don't have cancer!" i started screaming, like literally screaming/crying on our front porch. i screamed out the words thank you into the phone so many times that i lost count, Khaled was giving me confused looks 'cause he didn't know what was happening.

Everything happened so quickly that threw my phone and ran and hugged him with all my might! "I DONT HAVE CANCER, KHALED!!!" After a few moments and hugged me back and started crying, yes, he was crying. "Oh, thank God! i thought i was gonna lose you" and in that moment i realised something…

i broke off our hug and started wiping his tears with my thumbs, leaving them to linger a bit on his moist cheeks. i stared deeply into his eyes and said 3 words that i never ever ever thought i would say..

"i love you."

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